coffeehouse scene or date scene?

I feel as though there are so many people out there, but I can not relate on a good dynamic to most of them. I meet people in class, but they don’t give me a second look until they see me at some exciting restaurant or concert venue outside of class. Why is it that the dynamic that we meet people on is so important in regards to how we are going to be treated in the future? Do I look like a typical urbanite? No. Though I blatantly would never fit in with the sorority group, either. So I sit at a coffee shop with a book, and I have a Mac. This makes me a ‘trendy hipster’ in the eyes of some. What does that even mean? I’ve heard a lot of my friends labeled as ‘indie’, but I also look at some other people who are labeled as ‘indie’ who are nothing like my friends. I have this fantastic hodgepodge of friends who don’t really fit into a specific group. They are not scene, goth, preppy, punk, indie, alternative, wholesome, or religious. They are individual people. I am eternally hopeful that I’ll meet more people like them. What does a label have to do with it? Perhaps I’m not great at expressing myself in an art form, but being math driven does not reflect my curiosity and respect for galleries and intricate discussions that may or may not be about something ‘important’. Everybody has a view and a will to say it. So people need to say what they are thinking because I may judge you before you open your mouth, and you have the power of words to change my mind.

I do honestly feel that these college years are going to be some of the best of my life. I do not want to waste one more moment. I study a lot. School is very important to me, but at the same time I count down the minutes until the weekend where I can drink and smoke and be the dumb reckless young person nobody sees me as Monday-Thursday. I want the adventure that is advertised to me in the movies. I want to trek through the woods for half an hour to get to this insane party in the middle of no place. I want to meet new people. I want to be charming when I’m not drunk. I never want to feel awkward. I want to feel that feeling of ecstasy everyone feels while sitting around your friend’s basement laughing until your stomach hurts about something you already forgot about.

So I’m trying to write this novel of my life. Interesting things all happen so quickly that I struggle to get them down on paper. I’m too lazy to write about what just happened, so I keep a small notebook in my purse to write snippets that I would otherwise forget about. The names will be changed, but the story line will remain the same except greatly exaggerated. Here I am, frustrated, because I can’t pour out my thoughts on paper in the same way that I narrate things in my head. I am taking this time instead to ramble on about other things on my mind. I often wonder if other people might feel the same way.

So this was my forum for the night. It’s just a little bit, but maybe the life of the party is out there nodding his or her head in agreement. Perhaps you are more on the shy side. If so, I encourage you to get out there and have the best time of your life. Just make the decision to have fun when you walk out the door. Talk to someone random.

Or maybe you should all just remember that the blonde chick sitting at the coffee shop with her laptop is not trying to be ’scene’ or trying to fit a stereotype she doesn’t look as though she could fall under. Maybe she just likes to drink coffee and change up the atmosphere. Maybe you should talk to that girl. She may look interesting and unique but less flashy and trendy–not look like typical cool, but she’s way badass. Stop the stereotypes and get to know the people who probably know more about the exciting event happening on a random Tuesday night.

I just like people who have some of their stuff together and know what’s going on. That’s what’s up.